Friday Inspiration: The Stomach Virus

Hold up... Wait a minute... Isn't the Friday Inspiration post supposed to be about positive things?!?! Awesome organization, decorating, and creating photographs that I have collected throughout the week that match a certain theme. Well, normally, but today I am taking a different path. And, yes, this is a positive post, but a more personal one too. So, here we go...

When you think of the stomach virus, what comes to mind? Does it look a little something like this?!?!

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Well, let me tell you, it felt something like that too...

I will start by saying that the last two weeks have been emotionally, mentally, and physically draining ones. I don't want to go into the details on the Internet because I don't like to blast my deep personal business. But, lets just say that the second week ended with my daughter biting three times at daycare, me almost having a mental and emotional breakdown (no joke), and then me getting the stomach virus. 

I told y'all that the name of my blog was a play-on-words. When I said that, I truly meant it. I am an individual that thinks I have to be the perfect wife, mommy, coach's wife, educator, student, daughter, sister, and the list goes on. I also carry everyone else's stress on my small 135 pound back (yep, just blasted my weight to the world... hahaha). I feel like I should be Mrs. Fixit! Some part of my brain can't get the fact that I can't do that. So, Sunday, I felt like the world was resting on my shoulders. I laid on my bed (away from everyone) and spent the afternoon thinking. Then, Monday hit and I thought I was in a better place and I was going to coast to Spring Break... NEGATIVE!!!! 

By Monday evening, I was sitting on my mom's couch while my mom, uncle, sister, dad, and daughter (my husband was at a baseball game) sat around me... Tears rolling down my face. I still get choked up thinking about it. I could not get a grip of my emotions and my mental state. My daughter was starting to suffer (the next day she bit three times at daycare), my husband was starting to feel helpless, my sister thought I was about to commit suicide, and my parents didn't know what to do. After a good cry, I thought I had it all out of my system... Then, Tuesday happened.

At around 8:00 that evening, I found myself back on the same couch with my husband listening to my mom give me the "I don't know what to do Kristin" talk. Honestly, I think when it rains, it pours! So, after another explaining of everything and how I wasn't going to commit suicide (after making the comment to my sister that I should jump off a bridge... seriously,  I was just running my mouth in frustration), she told me that she was worried about me and so was everyone else in my family. 

On to Wednesday, which was a little better... But, that evening I felt like I was about to pass out while watching tv around 10:00 with my husband. I felt light-headed and like I was about to black out. So, I went to lay down and prayed that I could make it through my last day before Spring Break. Well, I got to school and started feeling light-headed and queasy around 11:00. I literally wanted to stretch out on the teacher's bathroom floor. And, then it began...

The stomach virus had entered the Morgan household with a vengeance.  I made it home and laid in bed all day (minus the times I had to run to the bathroom... no other details needed).

Today, I am feeling much better and I am able to think straight... I am actually thinking of this nasty virus as a blessing. I couldn't get a grip of myself and I wouldn't stop moving to figure out my problem. So, God forced me to! He is always there when we need him the most. And, as my mom sat me down Tuesday evening, she told me that she was putting it in God's hands (once again, getting a little choked up thinking about it) and I think he just answered her prayer (and, mine). 

Sometimes, we have to let it all go, stop concentrating on the wrong things, and remember what is important in life. Now, I know my battle is not over yet, but I think I may finally be down the right path...

To be Continued!!!

Happy Good Friday Everyone,